Issue #2: Disappointments

Why do we feel disappointed when things we least expect to go wrong comes out not in our favor? This year's university week felt like that. I know I haven't contributed much for the garnering of points for our department, but still, all my efforts of coming to school on time even if I am under asthma medication, sitting on the bleachers for hours, and a lot more sacrifices I did, all for nothing. Well, all for second place. 

I am disappointed because my friends and department mates are disappointed, and you can see it in their eyes how they'd wish to finally grab the throne from the defending champion. We've been working hard, but I guess what we did wasn't good enough. And that disappoints me too, how we did not maximize our resources to win. We could have won, but we didn't. And so we are facing a bitter sea full of sorrow. Yes, I am also in sour grape mode. Who wouldn't?!

Disappointments are meant to be faced head on, with us accepting our fates and how the truth can hurt, also if the effort you have put into doing something wasn't enough to achieve the goal. At least that's one of the few things I have learned today. Also is to never skip dinner, a hungry stomach adds more to the down feeling. Naps also helps, even just a 5-minute or a 10-minute nap can rejuvenate your lost energy and might alleviate the negative emotion within you.

Lastly, drink a hot  cup of chamomile with peppermint tea. I drank a cup and I feel groggy already. Write your disappointments, and let the world know that we have such an imperfect life with sorrow and dark days. xx

Issue #1: Being a Talented Wallflower

Like any normal teenager, I also have issues even if I'm already in my eighteenth year and it's already considered as an entry to young adulthood. But how come there are still a lot of issues that concerns problems of teenagers? Moreover, how can I cope up with them? I don't think keeping it hidden within yourself is not a good option as it sometimes turn out negatively unlike when you have an outlet for all of the issues you want to let out. Sometimes, telling our parents isn't enough, there's no retribution and you didn't even contribute to the society. You just made yourself a punching bag of bullies. Plain and simple.

Since I entered the university I'm in, I was and still a wallflower. But it didn't have much perks than what you think it does. It's hard, especially if you're a talented wallflower who has a lot more under your sleeves, but your school mates are just plain ignorant and selfish to notice. I mean, I was an achiever, I ace my subjects with flying colors since I was in elementary up to secondary education and is still doing so currently. I am an accomplished artists as I have won a lot of art and painting contests in the previous years, and had years of professional art classes with distinguished local artists. I am a musician. I can read and play musical notes with the piano and the violin. Music is not just a hobby for me, it's a passion since I have been exposed to various types of music at a young age.

So why can't people see that? Oh yeah, because I'm a damn wallflower who doesn't speak up for herself. What I'm trying to avoid here is getting branded as an ambitious girl who thinks she's better than anyone by delegating herself. But I think I will try that sometimes, to speak out, I mean. I have had my rest for the past year and I think I have mastered and known myself to be ready for battle, as Sun Tzu states in his renowned book 'The Art of War'.

So my piece of advice to those teens who are wallflowers but has the talent and has what it takes to conquer obstacles, grab the next opportunity stopping your way. As we grow older, we need to master how to make decisions that will benefit us and make us happy. After all, life wasn't given to us just to suffer, but it is a gift. A gift to do things with freedom. What we should do is maximize it, and make it bountiful. 

The good thing is I have been relieved of one of my teenage issues. I hope you too! xx