I AM FAT. For a person who barely stood 5 feet, and weighed almost 60 kilograms, that is beyond obesity. And I am referring to my ugly self.
I used to be thin in high school. So thin that I felt accepted by the society. Now that I've grown extra fat, I don't know where to put myself.
Yes, I am insecure and I hate myself about it, but you know what's worse is that me being fat and ugly and pimply and has unruly hair, I don't even know how to describe myself to you.
I've tried a lot of diet, I've blamed a lot of circumstances as to how I've gained weight (the most popular by far is my Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, which truly does make you gain weight).
Currently, I like someone whom I'm not privy of his personal life, feelings, etc. and it drives me crazy, even mad to think that I am not worthy of him because of my ugliness. I'm struggling, but I wasn't graced with the milky color of my friends' skin, their beautifully chiseled faces, nor their bodies. Rather I was granted with a petite stature, broad hipped, big butt, wavy hair and just plain curvy. Man, I hate it.
Currently, I don't know how to resolve this problem. I think I need time to do it so I can see if I can lose weight before my uncle's wedding and that I could accept myself again. :(
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